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Sunday, May 1
here comes another update about him. this blog , will be in malayish. malay english. sebab ayu tak reti nak type full malay sangat haha. its been over 3 months now that i havent contacted ayie , and its starting to get to me. i dont sit there crying anymore but i miss him more then i did when he first left me. im stronger now , but some how i feel as if i love him more now then i ever did? dont even ask me how this could even happen?, even im still struggling to find the anwser. semalam dia keluar hangout macam biasa, eddie upload pic biasa. offcourse la ada gambar ayie kan ? hahaha sumpah semakin comel. da nampak matang sikit. nak menagis pun ada kot. rasa macam nak lompat je masuk screen and peluk. :( selepas nampak pic baru dia ayu terus masuk website2 ticket check ticket balik malaysia. ticket semakin mahal :( ya allah ,, minta2 dapat la ayu balik. ayu nak jumpe dia. walaupun dia bukan milik ayu lagi. dapat tengok dia dari jauh pun cukup mbahagiakan diri ayu memang la doa ayu supaya ayu dapat peluang kedua. tap takkan ayu nak paksa? mesti korng fikir , ala kumbang bukan seekor many of fishes in the sea. tapi korg takkan faham perassan ayu until you expirence it. ive had delt with enough love situations to even care anymore. but ayie memang lain , dari aspect ape ayu pun tak dapat nak tahu :/ yang ayu tahu ayu sayangkan dia. dan kehilangan dia memang impact besar dalam hidup ayu. walaupun ayu ada layan lelaki lain sejak break dengan ayie, dan macam2 ayu da cube lakukan untuk lupakan ayie, i just cant. :( bila lelaki flirt, ayu tak dapat layan . memang ayu layan dorg cam tahi. but rasa rimas la bila layan lelaki lain ? errrh rimas rimas. Family ayu still think yang ayu in relationship dengan dia lagi , bila nampak je lelaki rambut pacak mesti sebut nama ayie. HAHA sumpah sengih cam orang gila. next week birthday ayie , umur dia pun masuk 16 :) sweet sixteen . ada la suprise nanti tunggu je hehe .. ive made up my mind about malaysia and i really want to live there, ada jugak masa ayu fikir. err tak nak la duduk malaysia buat ape ? tap ayu rasa kalau ayu berada di malaysia ayu akan tenang. DAN HAPPY! ada boyfriend ke takde boyfriend ke. bagi ayu kalau ayu ada dekat malaysia itu da cukup membahagiakan , kalau ada boyfriend memang lagi membahagiakan la. so plan ayu , ayu ingin bukak business sendiri di perth australia. ayu nak bukak malay/ indonesian style like spa. first ayu kene belajar everything dari segi makeup and all. and sebab ayu tengok style malaysia and indonesia off course kene blajar dekat sana kan ? hmm so maybe akan amik masa dalam 5 tahun . dalam masa yang sama jugak ayu nak kerja dengan wedding planner sebab itu pun salah satu impian ayu. wedding planner to more of a family business. sebab kalau wedding planner banyak cabang kan? photography , masak2 , makeup , hiasan pelamin , baju semua. and kalau bole ayu nak muat kan family ayu untuk ni. ta payah lah dorg susah2 keje bawah orang lain . dapat jugak income kan ? hmm insyallah |
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