AYU;YUYU

Semakin hari semakin bersyukur aku rasa dengan ape yang aku ada sekarang. Aku tak pernah rasa setenang ini dalam 15 tahun yang aku hidup. Aku dah mula solat balik cuba dapat kan masa yang penuh, dan juga aku semakin tabah mnhadapai ape2 yang berlaku. Ive reached 1 month and 3 days so far with awan. Syukur alhamdulilah we havent been in a situation that we havent been able to solve. Like in every relationship theres always that one person who trys to spoil it. I dont want to name her, but im sure if she reads this she will know its her im talking about. I can handle all this and so can my boyfriend but he gets pissed of with what shes doing and its alot hard for me to settle things with her siince im so far away. But i promise myself ill sort it out between her as soon as i go to malaysia.

Awan, i love you

Holidays are nearly over. Aku pun dh pulih dari demam lama aku nih.Just came back from the masjid. Had some "before puasa" stall day. let me tell u this, this stall made me forget about my diet. I had satay, chken satay. it was so gud, malaysian food that i misss! Everything was going fine, mama decided to sell karipup and mee rebus, i didnt have any of that. Had plenty of softdrinks though,. My tummy was aching bulk when i got home.

When i got home i decided to pay a little visit on ym. and what did i find? some lazy shit SHASHA makes up. to tell you the truth, i was getting worried. i didnt want to get heartbroken again. Because all i felt was the pain. It was stabbing me bad. I sent awan messages and asked for him to call me. and he did , we talked about it. AND guess what , what shasha said was a whole load of bullcrap!. ok so i called her a stupid slut, but if you know your not one, kenapa terasa HA? bodoh? aku pngil ko bodoh ko nk terasa jugak ke. Ape lah, dah besar panjang ada hotak lu fikir lah sendiri bai. Aku tahu aku tak sebaik mana, dan sememangnya aku tk suke bermusuh atau burukan nama orang, Tapi nasib ah, what goes around comes around ape yg akan belaku kepada aku aku redha aku terima. You can live your life as happy as you want, and ill live mine. Tapi ko tak yah ah bullshit ah, aku tahu awan tu laki baik. Ko tak yah nak bagitahu aku. haisz astagfirullah. Marah kan kau takde lah sangat. tapi aku bahagia sebab ini kali pertama aku settlekan hal ni dengan hati tenang babe.

Another 2 more days before me and awan reach a month. Alhamdulilah, so far so good. Not much fights have broken, but alotta laughter. Never been happier. BAHAGIAAAA can i say? Kalau ada jodoh tak kan kemana kan. Aku pun dah tak contact mana2 laki dah sejak couple dengan awan. Thankyou god. Bila aku fikir balik, aku langsung tk plan pun nk couple dengan awan. TAK TERLINTAS LANGSUNG. stakat i thought he was good looking. Itu saja, kenal lebih2 takde pun. Tapi sedangkan dia banyak bagitahu aku pasal hal hal dia. dan awan pun dah mula tunjuk "syok" kat aku, aku pun pe lagi layan lah. GATAL . akhirnya couple dengan mohd syazwan gendut ni. Semoga berkekalan lah hehehehe. Aku dan awan cam satu kepala lah. sebab tu kot kita jarang sangat gaduh. Seronok bergayut dengan dia. And im sure lagi best bila kita jumpa nanti. heheh tak sabarr.

alhamdulilah, tuhan temukan aku dan dia :)

Havent posted a bulliten in ages, Im meant to have heaps of things to tell you, well i kinda dont. Hmm lets start. So the financial year is over now which means tax returns. For some months i hated tax because it took half my pay out and i didnt really have anything to buy, But it benefit me so much this year. i got a total of 517 back this year! yey shopping shopping shopping and also its been a week since ive claimed it so im kinda getting pissed its not in my account yet lol.

I just got better from a major sick spasm. Longest ive been sick in a while! my 5th day of being sick today i feel much better but the fact is i still cant goo out bcoz im sick and the weather aint liking me haha so im not gonna bother.

Other things hmm... shasha and pesa . They wont leave me and awan alone. Like shasha keeps on saying this and that on myspace trying to get me and awan fighting. PESAAA is calling me a perampas. Kepala hotak dia lah kan. stupid slut stupid guy. Me and awan think they should just goo out. They both have mouths they cant shut. And both are up themselves. I dont care im not gonna break it of with awan just because of those two monkeys.

Myspace, since i was sick i got 4 pages full of comments i didnt know weither to reply or not. but then i just left them there and approved them. They realised that i got better so they kept on sending me more comments hmm. very tiring. But anyway i think thats all for todayy..

WATCH ME ON MY VIDEO BLOG SOON YEH?

OH hai,
So today i didnt wake up on the right side of the bed. I got woken up at 7.45a.m and yes i was fast asleep. MUM wanted to go to the markets, and since its school holidays i draged myself to the shower. By the time i got out of the shower and stuck my bra on, my whole family was in the car. So i rushed with my hair not how i wanted it to be and my t-shirt looking kinda un ironed. So i got into the car, and i got a yell from my mum.
mama- Kau dah tahu kau lama bersiap kau bangun lah awal2
me- Mama kejut Ayu pukul 7.45 ok? Selepas tu klm kabut nak keluar. Market tu tutup pukul 12 kan.
Mama- ye lah kalu dah tahu nk kuar siap lah awaL
me- Kan ayu dah tanya dari semalam lg keluar ke tak hari ni. Mama tak kan tak kenal ayu lagi. Ayu mana suke mende mende plan last minute nih
Mama- hai tu lah bila cakap sikit dah melenting sbb ni lah mama suke diam. Kalau bukak mulut ada jer jawapan nye
me- Like mother like daughter lah
Mama- ............(diam je) means i menang hahahah

So off we were to the markets, and i saw the most eye catching heels ever! only $20 boy i had to go and buy them but i walked around the stall 5 times before thinking of buying them. I got a bargin went down too $15 wuhuuu. Heels from ZU original price $120 warghh they havent been warned yet said the previous owner. Soo cool. i started smiling and i walked to the car and asked to go home. But on the way we went to this garage sale in WELLARD they were chicks in the age of 18 and they were getting rid of their stuff. MAN it was a designers paradise , I got 20 bucks worth of ikea goods. Lamps,curtins wallpaper you name it!

WHAT DID I DO WHEN I GOT HOME?i cleaned my room, i swear ever since ive been with awan i love cleaning and cooking. Dont know why but i seem so organised. I vacumed and stuck all my new stuff in their new home. hehehe OH MY RED SHOES the're on display next to my mirror. How cuteee are theyy! hehehPAPA got home from playing golf and we went to rockingham shopping centre. It was cool because i havent been there for a while. Got myself some credit because papa didnt want to get me someee ERGHHH . But he bought me pretzoo! yum yum that made me abit more happier and now im at home typing.

My current mood; i dont know lah . Maybe ok, but i feel confused. hmmm
JOGGING TOMORRWW!~

What am i doing?
im so piised, why do you think your perfect.Your as fake as paris hilton. or maybe faker?. your a guy and thats the funny thing. BUAT MALU FAMILY MU JE! Your fakeness no one seems to notice. My returning date to malaysia is close to being finalised, yes our realtionship ended on JUNE 18TH 2009. But thats not the end of us. Im going to meet you, and please be aware it wont be nice. You may go home and INSAF or u may go home and laugh. You need to learn someway, and im going to make u change. Into the person you wish you were BUT YET THAT PERSON HAS GONE ASTRAY.my dear ex boyfriend, a tip for you to remember "secrats will be let out" If your thinking deeply while reading this, i suggest you shut your mouth my past aint as dirty as yours. GET out of my problems, i have a body to solve them. JUST CLEAN YOUR FUCKING MIND AND MOUTH and stop bullshiting boy. You think everyone fcking loves you, wait till i tell your "GIRLLS" what kind of guy you really are. Because boy i feel stupid for falling in love with a guy so fake, Even i was going red when this person told me what you really are. All i can do for now is laugh my days away. ive never felt so stupid for loveing yo every fucking day. I regret the bills that went higher then i thought.

JANGAN KO INGAT, AKU PEREMPUAN AKU LEMAH. KO JANGAN INGAT KO AKAN HIDUP SENANG SELEPAS NI.

AKU TAK KAN APE APE KAN FAMILY KO.
TAPI KO, START DIGGING YOUR OWN GRAVE YE!

HMMMMMM lets talk rojakk..

Ok, so sekarang aku dah tahu segala2nya. MEMANG AKU BENCI SEMUA EX EX AKU. semua cam VAVI,VANGSAT,VAHANAT taw? aku setia nk mmpus dengan dorg. tapi satu satu sakit kan hati aku. Pe hal eh? ape korg tkde kije ke. so ada 2 ex aku yg minta maaf. nmpak cam dah insaf.. Tapi sbb aku baik(konon), aku dah maafkn mereka.. Tapi satu ni.. ADUI!. konon kaya arrr, belagak nak mampus. aku baik sbb tu aku tk bg nama. Tapi oleh kerana someone bgthu aku citee yg real real punya mmg aku terpaksa mencarut habis2an ktt cni. KO MMG SIAP ARR! buat malu nama family je vangsat! vangsat vangsat!

"The girl who dreams bigs , forgets today remembers tomorrow tough outside so warm inside .
19 educated imature little boo!"
Life has taught me that patience is a beautiful thing

So blessed to have such a beautiful family , a paying career and a brain that functions quiet well As life is always known as a journey I would call mine a ride on an ever lasting Roller Coaster.

I hope your the last , baby
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