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Tuesday, February 2
Its funny how when people say live life to the fullest but end up wanting to kill them self over small problems. Patheticly , your statement is in correct loser!. second day of school, stress level feels like its starting to build up. Im concentrating a bit more in class now that i have all the subjects i want. 4TEE subjects and 2 jobs, i guess that wouldnt be bad this year.! So much to look forward to this year. was planning on having a huge get together again. maybe? HOPEFULLY reaching the new years resolotion! Insyallah, if allah izin's kan. I miss my lover, well "reality" his not mine, we dont even talk. but i always go on his page and take looks around. and when i see him talking to other girls(via facebook). it hurts , i guess i love him to much! ive tried to forget about him. and think of the things that can make me hate him. successfull for like an inch of a second. then im back to loving him. i guess in a way im determined its him. But im no one to make assumptions and completly head that way because of the strong feeling i have, i guess ill just have to wait and see. I miss him so much. Sometimes its just not the same when im around guys. i cant talk to them to much. i stand there for a hi and bye convo. nothing in depth. which i doont mind! weird? yea i guess im madly inlove. i still count our annivesry . even maybe he dosent even notice our anivesry anymore. i miss his voice, his company. his all i ever needed. a bro, a boy, a husband , a dad , a mum , the girlfriend and the lil one. he was everything. and he still means everything to me. Yea we've broken up. and the other part of me just went with him. i dont know weither im gonna get the other half of my life back again. i love him, i miss him, i need him. trying to stay strong in every possible aspect *school *family *religon *social /friendship *goals! |
"The girl who dreams bigs , forgets today remembers tomorrow tough outside so warm inside . 19 educated imature little boo!" So blessed to have such a beautiful family , a paying career and a brain that functions quiet well As life is always known as a journey I would call mine a ride on an ever lasting Roller Coaster. I hope your the last , baby  June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 May 2012 June 2012 August 2012 December 2012 May 2013 June 2013 July 2013 The Romance - Ku Ingin Kamu New Version |
