IM under alotta stress now, i cant seem to hold my patience any longer. I HAVENT become suicidal so dont worry about me. Business is all being put on me and at one stage i cried at school because i couldnt take it any longer. Business teacher keeps on blaming me for everyones lack of teamwork and commitment. Im getting fed up but everytime i speak i get ignored. Why's everything happening this way? i dont know. I ve cried, ive tried to lead everyone in this business but nothing seems to work. I feel like im failing in life, i hardly spend time with my family and i always seem to be in the most discusting mood when they are happy and enjoying. I dont know how long i can take this. I just need a break from everything. I just need to go far away from school and be able to just do what i used to do. But then i rememberd its life and we dont always get what we want. Im sick and tired of school, but i know without education i will suffer in the future not only me but also my family and the family to come. I dont want to enjoy now and then regret later like the old friends i used to have who quit school and now are on centerlink(govenment money). I dont want to turn out like them. I dont want to live life only to enjoy and then work after you enjoy. NO ITS WORK BEFORE YOU ENJOY. i got a payrise today now im on 12dollars an hours YAY! more money = more spending money in malaysia. Me and awan? Yeh nearly 2 moonths weve been together im happy fights have craked at some points but i love him and i dont ever think that will change ive got heaps of things ahead of me puasa, raya, business person of the year exam, trade expo, liquidation aloot!!! i just want to get everything over and done with.

wish me luck, guysxxx