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Thursday, June 18
Akhirlah hubungan aku dan pesa hrini 31march 2009-18 june 2009. My relationship is over between pesa. i dont know how to describe the feelings inside me. Im in a lot of pain and strugling to hold the pain back. Ive got red eyes , black eye bags from crying to much. i never thought id be hurt the 13th time by a guy like him. Im so hurt i dont think i can do anything else other then cry. Ill take you inside our break up. Message from me to pesa: hri ni i bru dpt fone billfone bill mlmbung dn i tkde duit nk byar mama i blik.Kita dah jarang sangt contact dn i rasa bersalah gila terhadap mama dan papa. I org susah you. walaupun i kije i ada bnyk utang i kne selesaikan. Boleh tak you contact i? i online selalu sbb i nk contact dgn you:(i thu you ada banyak kije tapi tk kn satu minute pun you tkde ntuk i? i rasa cm kita tk couple pun. Tp i rasa cam kita kawan yg de prasn cinta trhdap stu sama lain. PLEASE PULL YOUR FINGER IM BEGGING YOU. cube lah ntuk contact i. i tk sanggup lg nk mnyusahkn mak bapak i. please, call me send me text once in a while? you lngsung tk mnnjukkan u nak contact i. Kita still couple or not? hri sbtu ni i g cari kije. i snggup kije 3 tmpt supaya dpt contact u berusaha kalau nk serious kalau tk. leave me ok iloveyou i always will:(( His reply To me: mcm nie je lah bb.kite break je lah.kesian plak i tngok u..i bz lah..ibnyak keje nak kene bwt..lg pown kite jauh susah nak contact..nak kne gune duet bnyak..bkn i x ske u. i ske u tp jauh sngat lah.i nak contact u pown susah.u nak contact i pown susah.i skrg lg bz. bnyak keje..kite break okey?tp kite still kwn lg taw..susah lah jauh2..sorry u. kite still jd kwn taw.im so sorry.. ;[ Memang Kita break baik baik, tapi effect nye sangat besar.Masih teringat lagi time bru minta couple awal2 i dah cakap, sanggup ke? sy overseas kan. Why does he need to hurt me at the end why did he make me wait.?. The message i sent was sent lastnight and he replied when i was at school. First i was calm but then i started to feel lightheaded and my heart started to rip and shatter. i could fill water just running to my eyes and smiled and said to myself ive been fooled again. I was in accounting and finance when i checked this Ms Trisal wasnt in so stress was off my back. i walked out of class for lunch and slowly made my way to the spot. i sat down and thought about the promises i belived . Our first date, and ofcourse him. i stuck "terprankap cinta" on and sat there and listened to it. Made me cry but no tear yet to be seen. I went in english and i wasnt in the mood for work. I got yelled at for wearing my beanie/hood in class then she said i woke up on the wrong side of the bed and i anwsered back so i had to stay in class and i couldnt go to the concert. I started crying this time tears ran down. luckly no one saw. i felt so down i couldnt think, he was on my mind and playbacks of our moments were in the back of my head. HOW COULD HE HOW COULD HE. left me with a huge amount of phone bills and the promises he didnt make. Got out of english went home and in the car got a lecture from my mum about the bill. i held my tears bt as soon as i took 5 steps in the house i couldnt do anything else but burst out in tears i held my towel and stuck it over my face so every little tear would fall on my towel. i then came online and 5 people asked how my realtionship was and how everything go i was speechless . So i stuck on my cam, from them seeing my tears they could tell what the anwser was. Im still hurt, im still in pain my tears are still running down . I swear i only loved him, and i only wanted him. My fullest attention was for him and this is what i get back i dont want to see him again , im scared il hug him and beg. I dont want to its not me. Message to this guy who said i was sombong: YOU DONT KNOW what ive been through today, And i tak bajet hot. Sbb i mmg tk hot pun nk bajet2 hot Kalau i hot pun i tk bajet kot. kau tu dah besar pun psl aku tk reply comment pun cakap aku sombong blah lah weh aku bkn saja2 babi! |
"The girl who dreams bigs , forgets today remembers tomorrow tough outside so warm inside . 19 educated imature little boo!" So blessed to have such a beautiful family , a paying career and a brain that functions quiet well As life is always known as a journey I would call mine a ride on an ever lasting Roller Coaster. I hope your the last , baby  June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 April 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 August 2011 September 2011 October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 May 2012 June 2012 August 2012 December 2012 May 2013 June 2013 July 2013 The Romance - Ku Ingin Kamu New Version |
